Also from David Brainerd's journal: The Works of Jonathan Edwards, Volume Two (ix.i.ii): "I felt weaned from the world, and from my own reputation amongst men, willing to be despised, and to be a gazing-stock for the world to behold. It is impossible for me to express how I then felt: I had not much joy, but some sense of the majesty of God, which made me as it were tremble. I saw myself mean and vile, which made me more willing that God should do what he would with me; it was all infinitely reasonable."

I fear how little I desire to be weaned from my own reputation amongst men. Lord God give me repentance; change my heart to Love You more.